At some point in Life you come to see that sex with no meaning is the same as fucking for free. When I was a virgin I imagined sex in the most passionate way. Then after a few times of trying to get it, that one person had me wishing I was never introduced to “Dick” the Devil. Sex was so good, I loved how it made me feel, I loved how we had a connection, I loved……….ok wait now I think I love him. Well I did and he was my best friend, but the worst thing of my life happened…..he went upstate. This left me at 18, Ms. One Dick to the wolves of Devil Dicks. I waited for a year and a half till I ventured out because of that tingling sensation my body was feeling. The down fall of it all I was looking for that feeling again. The feeling we had, but now at 33 we, he, us had a meaning when we had sex. Others became a chase, a game of let’s see how far you will go for this pussy. Back then men would jump through burning hoops, which was fun, but if you were weak it would leave you devastated. This happened to me a few times. I got caught up with some Devil Dicks…you know the playa, the cheating husband, the playa, the one night stand, the playa, the confused, the playa, a few selective DJ/Artist, the Playa. However the one that got me was the one who said I love you, but I need help with these bills Dick. I was confused, I was lost....how can I give him all his freedom, no stalking calls, no questions, no where you at, we had fun, we could talk, SEX was amazing.....it was all WE!! One thing I would not do was take care of him, pay his bills. Not only that, this man BURNED me. Yes brought my ass a non-friendly STD. Then after our break up this fool had nerve to want me back, he literally eyed stalked me everywhere he saw me for months. With all that I turned me into the Devil Pussy that would look at you and tell you sorry it’s time to go home. I was rebellious, became a stripper (lol ever wondered where Mysteria came from) and was like man if you can’t pay my bills you can move to the left. I did that for a few years and it still left me lonely and unhappy, WHY because it was not me. I was MAD OF COURSE. Here I was being the honest faithful chick and the one man  who burned me and  I THOUGHT had meaning really wanted a financial planner. What stopped alllll of this in its track was when I decided to work things out with my true meaning of sex. I mean I literally didn’t have sex for 6 months and was moving to Jamaica. However he was murdered a few months after us having that talk. My life changed, my world went dark, and I felt nothing. Which lead me down the path of wanting something I didn’t need, which is an entirely different story/topic from this one! 

Conclusion:  
Some women enjoy sex so much meaning meant nothing as long as they came or felt good, some wish and even regret they could fuck randomly especially after being with one man for so long who did them dirty. Some women STILL have meaningless sex to avoid heartache, cover heartache or searching for something that’s missing. Yeah I sure did ENJOY sex because Cumming was a great stress reliever. Yet I was searching and STILL found nothing, but a valuable lesson. Never ever EVER seek what god never intended for you at that moment. Why…..because in the end it will lead to a test that can break you or make you into a stronger person. I would never change my past because it sure did make me stronger and I can laugh about most of it. I had fun, but everyone is not built that way. So choose wisely, because now a days to much random, too much no meaning and too much of nothings floating around.

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