So at times I get personal so my readers know I am real and deal with real life daily.  I normally write a post the beginning of each year, however 2014 left me in OMG status.  2015 was the best learning experience I can add to my long list of experiences.  I was separated, filed for a divorce, GOT HAPPY, started dating, got a divorce, fell in love, got pregnant and got confused all in one year. So when they say A LOT can happen in one year, they were not lying.  Some say I was moving too fast, I say I been stuck for so long I got happy and free that the connection I felt I went with it.   I was not looking for anything, I was not wanting a ring nor was I looking to even move in OR settle with another man. Not right now anyway!!

I did want another child, which was our common ground and  sparked our entire relationship.  I can not leave out the great communication, laughter, connection and bond we have and still have.  Which I have not felt and seen in years.   He was more then my type, he was my match, my friend. We wanted the same things, but I was clear minded and he wasn't.  Stuck in his past he went back once she realized he was really moving on.  I won't lie that shit left me all confused after all we did just find out I am expecting.  However understanding where he stood I stepped back to allow him to do his thing, because again that was not our plan or goal.  We where two people married for many reasons that we can not explain and wanted to grow.  I keep thinking people are like me and will take chances.  However the more I speak to him and even A LOT of my friends I see it isn't easy for some.  In the end we both got what we REALLY wanted and that was another child.  Was it the right way, well most will say hell no, but for two people who did do it the right way, excuse us for wanting to go half on a baby.

In all I am glowing and excited about my new addition. He is here and I am overwhelmed with all kinds of feelings.  We have a great bond, which every child should see.  It's sad because the man I gave my all too, 7 years to be exact  STILL at this very moment treats me as the enemy of the universe, because I wanted to BE HAPPY and live in peace for the sake of our son.  So when people who do not know my situation ask if I regret leaving, I SAY NO.  Why be sad when I am reminded daily why I left.  I wish him nothing, but the best and pray one day he gets more involved, rather then threatening when he has "money" he will take our son.  That's another story, but money isn't everything.  So I won't EVEN touch on that.

Now that I got what I wanted and learned some great lessons.  I can FINALLY truly focus on me, my work, my business and how to be a great mother to two little men.