Thursday, June 19, 2014

QUESTION OF THE DAY: How big is too big?

Once upon of time my ass would swear to the dick gods for a BIG DICK!  First off people who never even fucked should never ever cry about dick size, because truly your little vajayjay can’t manage a big dick. Now once you start taking dick, I always think woman should enjoy and explore. Now explore don’t mean fucking everything you see, explore means don’t fall in love and wanting to marry that dick that got you sprung.  Now my first dick is still of my top 3 favorites and it will never die, he was medium.  Now my top 3 worst included the biggest dick of my life x 2!!

 Ok so this was in my hoeish, fuck a nigga faze after a HORRIBLE break up so don’t judge me (though I don’t give two shits, I’m just saying).  Now the first XXL Magnum was a waste! He had a HUGH dick and had no damn clue what to do with it.  Big dick, fine ass man but first pussy attitude.   I don’t know if it was; because he wanted it so bad he got confused or maybe pussy never came from someone so fine (lmao)!! I will forever believe in my mind, he just wanted it so bad since we knew each other for a while.  He was literally 9+, non-human I rather say! It took a nap and some convo to get it in.  Then it took some teaching of in-out techniques, because this mofo had no rhythm.  Then he wanted to get fancy and that is when I knew that big dick and I were not going to be friends.  I didn’t enjoy any position, absolutely NONE!  On top of all that, my vaja was in pain for a minute and not in a good way.

 My second big dick was more of a hell no what is that!  It was big, fat and black.  It looked like it should be framed and put into a dick hall of fame for big dicks, dipped in gold.  This was more emotional, because he knew he had a big dick. Though he looked so good, he could never keep a girl around.  I say girl, because at that time I was a girl growing into a woman.  If I was who I am now, I would have made that shit work, because he was a good man.  During our adventure he couldn’t even get in the tip, I mean it hurt to try.  KY didn’t work; neither did that bomb ass head.  I was so devastated, because he was so passionate.  His own down fall was most women’s dream, his dick.

 So to answer the question, well you really can’t it’s what you can handle or what you prefer.  My scary ass defiantly cannot manage a big XXL off the chart dick 7,8 is just fine, but I know numerous of woman that can manage 9+!  So woman need to just stop with the big dick talk and start with I need a dick just my size.

Yours truly,

The Passionista

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Give your Vaja a Panty break….Sunday June 22 is No Panty Day

If your like me, I use more than one day a month or even a year for No Panties.  Sometimes your kitty really needs to purrrrr and take a breather. Taking a bath or a shower sometimes is just not good enough. Your vaja needs to feel free, get space and spread freely. Dick should not be the only way your she spreads. If your like me, I hate wearing anything tight when I am asleep. So if its not my granny panties then its defiantly no panties. The best time for no panties is after you shave! You should give your pours a break and not suffocate them after taking away all that hair. The best thing to do is spread eagle and pray a nice fat tongue lands right in it! (**NOTE** oral sex after shaving is not good, since your pours are open and are at risk of any infection.  Just because you don't see or feel anything, trust your pours are open.  This is why your vaja should not be completely nude.  I won't know no one, but its not good.)

 Take this as a tip and give your vaja a breathing session at least 3 times a week.

 WARNING: If you have rats, roaches, ants or any weird bugs, panties before bed is best for you. You do not want to wake up with anything in your ovaries unless its sperm.

 ~ My thoughts, my vision, my prerogative!!

 Mysteria
The Passionista

Divorce is not good, but Happiness is Better.....My long short story to you

To start off my blog I will share the pain that has caused me to stop what I love to build up my new home.  It used to be shameful to do this, but I share this for those women who will not leave a mental abuser because of the fear of being alone or feel they can't do any better!! With faith and god better comes when you believe. 
For 4 years out of 7 of being married I have suffered and struggle for this man I said vows too to love me. Getting together for all the wrong reasons I tried my best to still make it work.  I did my best to let him see all I wanted was a family. He has gained so much from me and all I got was drained.  He mentally drained me with his abusive tongue to keep me down and locked in his mind games.  Never once did he hear my cry.  Instead he put me down more to make it feel like what happened was all because of me.  Never would I imagine I would lose myself so bad it drew so many away, because of the pain I gained from him.  I didn’t trust ANYONE!!! To list a few things my family was not welcomed to stay at our house and if they did come over it was an issue, he tried to get my best friend drunk so his friend could sleep with her and he touched another one of my best friends while she was intoxicated. Not only did I stay I lost two people who I loved. Good thing they know the meaning of friendship, because after that we became friends again!!! 

We have been through sooooo much, but only happiness was what people seen! They thought we were a team and had a strong unit.  Never would anyone imagine the pain I was really feeling.  I mean with him getting his citizenship, which now he is able to work, learning a real skill that I went to school for and I have to pay back, tried my hardest to bring the best out of him and brought our beautiful  child in this world. After all the mental abuse and the emotional imbalance you would think this man would let me go in peace. You would think he would be happy that I am finally happy! Wishful thinking right!!??! This man treats me 10 times worse and as if I did him wrong!  He calls me irrelevant, he hopes I upgrade to better if I could do any better, tells me my son does not like me and not happy, claims he's happy I left, I'm lucky to have his son and last calls me evil. Anyone who knows me knows that I can be an emotional roller coaster I'm a Gemini! However evil I can never be. I wanted to be happy, so I left and because I left with nothing but our child, a car and my head high he's mad, angry and bitter. Like in our marriage he continues to feel he has to prove he is better than me and has to make money so he can show me I will regret leaving. Sad part of it all I met him with nothing working in a patty shop and living at home. I ask this question till this day what more would I want??? All I ever wanted from this man was a family and love. Something we can build together! Since he was not a man he was busy trying to find himself and breaking me down at the same time. 

I use to be mad and I refuse to let go, because I felt like I built this man up why leave and let someone else reap the benefits.  Then after counseling and some real soul searching, I finally let it go. I left it up to god and found happiness ALONE! No arguing, being insecure, feeling like “who I am” was a bad thing and feeling like I was no good.  It took years to be broken down but a shorter time after I left him to find happiness. I can go on and on about this and that, but my point is I found happiness. Being a woman who needs that attention and loves having a companion I am happy to know I can do without and still be happy.  

People wondered if there was any good and I say yes!!! However when the bad over shadow the good than there is nothing to hang onto! The best thing was my son! That was the best 9 months of my marriage. My son brought me the sense I needed to stop babying a man.  I did give him a bit of credit, because within 3 months he did more for me then he has in 5 years.  Then turned around and told me he only did it to see if he could do it, then all credits where lost. Silly me!!  I don't hate him and I wish him the best. I NOW know what I deserve and wanted to start over fresh, just not with him. Yes he still treats me like shit, which gives me more joy to know I did the right thing!! TRUST me looking at my son made me think, what did I do? Well I found me and I'm stress free. Not to mention my son is livelier, cries a lot less and is less anti-social.  With me leaving it benefited more than my happiness, it made my son personality do a 360! I no longer need to cry or care when he tries to break me down! All I do is laugh at his old bitter ass! He thought I was weak, I proved him and many others; even myself wrong.  

Fear makes us stay, once you give that fear up to god, he will help you along the new journey you will walk! He will not let you fall once you have that faith. A lot I yes  A LOT of new challenges will come along to make you think twice, however you always got to remember god will not put you through anything he know you could not handle. Easier said than done I still to this day battle with not losing faith, yeah I'm human. But I think of the goodness and find ways to keep that faith! My faith, my family and true friends gave me that strength and for that I am forever grateful!

I made it out....I did it!

My long short story to you
Mysteria

Friday, June 13, 2014

To you married women (ring or no ring) find yourself, be yourself, love yourself.

"To you married women (ring or no ring) find yourself, be yourself, love yourself. Just take it one day at a time!"

Enjoy my journey as I learn, share and give my all not only to my marriage but to myself. Finding me sexually was something I feared! Yes I may have given some guys the best fuck they ever had, but exploring me is something I never really focused on. Back when I was single I was so focus on pleasing he, that I totally forgot all about me. So walking into my marriage with the same mind frame was a challenge I did not know was going to be so difficult!  Why was it difficult, because I didn’t know me?  I knew how it felt to make love, fuck, have a quickie and all of the above; but knowing the passionista that lurks inside me I did not know her.   

 After having my son my mind sexually changed 100%, however showing it is my challenge. Being a woman that is OCD with perfection, I over look things that matter now! The fear of losing only made me lose myself.  The fear of being broke and not able to feed my family makes I not want to live and splurge on myself without regret.  I fear rejection so being open gets put off continuously.  All these things lurking in your mind only does one thing, make sex a non-mutha fucking factor, which is something most married women face. 

 A wise woman once said, “You live life one day at a time, because tomorrow is not promised!” ~Gloria Graham

 I won’t kill your eyes to much, but at this time I will end my open session by saying this, “To you married women (ring or no ring) find yourself, be yourself, love yourself. Just take it one day at a time!”